I had an interesting conversation with a friend the other
day. We have opposing views on the show The Big Bang Theory. She feels that the show pokes fun at geek
culture from a position of power and privilege: the people who have always
picked on the geeks of the world are continuing to pick on the geeks of the
world. I feel like it’s a sadly accurate
portrayal of some aspects of geek culture: the characters are stereotypes
(duh), but they are stereotypes for a reason (i.e. those guys exist within geek
culture).
I believe that part of this difference in opinion comes from
how both of us fit into and identify with geek culture. We were both socially awkward growing up,
and, truthfully, we are both still pretty awkward, but we’ve learned how to live
with this affliction. She works in
community development and outreach for a tech company. She also has an incredibly impressive creative
streak that she puts to good use as an author, former HR person for a geek/nerd
convention, and online video personality. She, at least compared to me, is a
social media guru and has connections all over the geek/nerd community through
her work and through personal networking. In fact, I’d guess that most, if not
all, of her friends are somehow connected to geek or nerd culture in our area. From
my personal perspective, she has managed to fit into the culture and I frequently
hear from people in the community regarding her awesomeness.
I am not like her when it comes to geek and nerd culture.
I’m only marginally creative (and that isn’t a bad thing for someone who has little
or no artistic ambitions) and my career goals are closely related to social
policy, politics, and social justice.
While this ambition and geek culture is by no means mutually exclusive,
sometimes they have strongly divergent tendencies. For example, my focus on minorities and
economic equity often means that I focus on issues that many of the often
well-off software developers and engineers involved in geek and nerd culture
has no interest in or have little empathy for.
This isn’t to say that they are bad people. They are probably perfectly fine individuals,
they just don’t have the same set of values that I do. Unfortunately, that means that many of my
perspectives and opinions are either about issues that these folks can’t relate
to or concern to issues that they don’t care about.
So what does any of this have to do with the title of this
post: Fitting In? I mentioned to my
friend that I like The Big Bang Theory because I feel like it’s, in many ways,
an accurate portrayal of geek culture.
Of course, it’s also a very inaccurate
portrayal in other respects, but the writers don’t claim that the show is the
be-all end-all of geek culture (at least not that I’ve heard). In her opinion, the writers are focusing on
negative stereotypes about geeks and nerds: social awkwardness, inability to
understand nonverbal communications or pick up on basic social cues, lack of
physical fitness or attractiveness, childlike obsessions, and some twisted feeling
of superiority to “normal” (which is really just a nice way of saying “stupid”)
people. I agree that these traits are
certainly not exclusive to geeks or nerds.
I also agree that many nerds or geeks are completely different than the
stereotypes in the show and would be just as annoyed with the behavior of the
characters as anyone else.
My admittedly limited experience with self-proclaimed geeks
and nerds has left me feeling like an outsider within the geek/nerd community.
My favorite episode of BBT is the one where Penny introduces the guys to her
latest boyfriend, Zack. He isn’t
particularly intelligent, but he is fairly genuine and seems to make an honest
effort to get to know the guys. During
one of the initial interactions between Zack and the rest of the guys, the
geeks make fun of Zack’s lack of scientific knowledge and eventually make fun
of him to the point where he leaves the room.
Penny then points out that, “for guys who always got picked on growing
up, you sure can be a bunch of bullies. Shame on all of you.” Call me crazy,
but this line sums up geek culture to me.
I have literally been told that I shouldn’t be somewhere or
participate in a particular discussion because I wasn’t enough of a geek or
nerd. A recent example was using a football
analogy (American Football, not European Football) when explaining part of a
Star Trek episode to a small group of people. Not thinking of the audience I
was with, two of the guys looked at me with the blank, uncomprehending stares
of people who have absolutely no reference point to draw a comparison to what I
was talking about. I attempted to clarify my point by making a political
analogy, but they also had no idea who and what I was talking about. Frustrated, they ended up telling me that I
shouldn’t even bother talking about Star Trek with people because I obviously
wasn’t a real fan. Apparently sports,
politics, and science fiction are mutually exclusive topics.
If you’ve read some of my previous posts, you’ll know that I
was frequently singled out or picked on growing up. I developed a rather vicious strain of
sarcasm and a mildly toxic distrust of others as emotional armor to combat my
isolation and loneliness. As I’ve grown
up, I have attempted to mitigate my tendency to jump straight to sarcasm (with
mixed results). Now, I make an effort to
include people and I find it outrageous that so many self-proclaimed
geeks/nerds that I run into don’t feel the same way or even make a passing
effort to include others.
For those guys (and girls) that struggle with a history of
bullying, verbal and emotional abuse from peers, and other kinds of isolation
and exclusion due to their passions, activities, and knowledge of random and
archaic topics, I get it. You know what
it’s like to be torn down for not being “good enough” or “smart enough” or
“cool enough” to do something. Sure, it
might be satisfying initially to tell someone that they aren’t as
“good/smart/cool” as you are, but doing so ultimately continues the terrible
cycle of abuse and bullying that you experienced growing up.
My parents frequently told me to “be the bigger person” as I
was growing up. I try to keep that in
mind every time I am tempted to act superior to other people. Sometimes I fail miserably, but it’s a work
in progress. I ask you all to also try
to expand your group of friends and make an honest effort to include people,
regardless of their geekery or level of nerdiness, and stop the cycle of
harassment and abuse. Teach people to love
science fiction rather than giving them more reasons to dislike those of us
that are passionate about it.
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